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8:13 PM Love is just a word. But the meaning of Love is the connection from the Source to its Destination. It means nothing, but what it matters is How much the Source is willingly to give to the Destination.

Everything which has a begining has an End. How it started and where it came from... in the end, the final destination of life will eventually return to its Source.

Love is a Human Expression, everyone has a expression best suited to him/her. A person who doesnt have a Expression is a programe, custom-made to fulfill its utmost purpose and when a new programe has been designed and created, it replaces it place in the Matrix and eventually being deleted off the Mainframe, it can choose not to be deleted, by running and hiding Hoping that it will not be found, OR it can choose to return to its Source, and that is the Architect or the Source.

Matrix Idealogy

Today nothin happened and nothin much i haf to say.. but today i have learnt alot of things... and learnt lots of things related to life... the above sentences are things which i have learnt. and my Answer to this question is:Love is just a word. But the meaning of Love is the connection from the Source to its Destination. It means nothing, but what it matters is How much the Source is willingly to give to the Destination. .. How much i want to give her.. and my Answer is. Everything. Every Single thing. My Life and Everything.

Even if i could give her my everything, will she accept it ? Will she be there by my side when i needed her ? will she commite herself ? or is it another unreciprocating feeling.. Love in the "Real Life reality" means giving a feeling to her, let her feel loved with conditions and lover her unconditionaly. But if this is wad it actually meant, why does it haf to allow pple to suffer unreciprocated love ? I cannot understand this .. but i hope i can find the answer to this qns as soon as possible before every other things end. Who knows i will life 2molo ? who know i might even leave this world 2molo... nobody know who is the next one to leave this world... thats y we need to live every minute, every second of our life meaningfully... cherish and treasure every second of our life, lead a life we always wanted and the most important of all .. not to haf regrets...

today i chatted with her on the msn for onli a few msgs.. and it seems like shes still busy as ever.. when i told her that we havent chat on the phone for a long time, she showed me a tongue sticking out emoticon and a smiling emoticon.. i dunno wad she meant.. and i hope she cant enlighten me soon.. before i break down on fine day....

i cant this anymore... it has been the 1st mth we haven spoke on the phone... after 26th will be the first month... i cant believe that time can bring us apart... and the space in between.. it took me great pains to search for you.. and you hold the key to my happiness if u wish... onli if u could believe my words and take my hand......

As today i learnt that Everything has a begining has a End. Love is just a word. Love is a expression and its meaning is how much the Source is willingly to give its Destination and the connection and how much it meant to the source. And the Answer is: Everything.

If you are reading this... i want you to know... Your Importance to me.. it cannot be used with words to describe the importance to me and its only you that brings the utmost in me.... If you are reading this... i would hope by that time.. i will still be here... i will be by your side... stand by you....

till the end of time... When the world turn their backs on you... always remember to look up, take a deep breathe, face the front, and remember... no matter what happens, and no matter how hard it is... i will stand by you eternally.....

Always.....in....my... heart..

Stand by you 4ever till the stars dun shine.

9:35 PM today.. actualli.. not much happened cuz i think i wanted to forget wad happened today.. erm.. juz now went to K box for some RnB event... but then cant take pics nvm... BUT worst of all... i went up to talk to a friend who was a fellow photographer, he was such a showoff, he showed off the camera by putting it on the floor, after that... i was told that we cant take pics inside the event area, then after that he and i got marked, and he blamed me for it... aiyah.. damn childish lehz.. this pple... summore want to compete with me.. already know my connections then want to fight with me... aiyoh.. he also another one haven taste was is called fire... den after the event is over, he come and tell me: u watch out. haahah such a joke... i told myself, 1 fine day... when i have regained my power into the industry.. i will show him was is called the true photographer and his equipment... finest in the corp, and finest in the world... better off then him.. used 2nd hand cameras and equipments..lol and worst.. he speaks broken english despite his age and education level.. and worse... he has a "luo feng" mouth.. every words he said was like... cannot understand onez.. haahahha

anyway... today when i saw RnB.. totally i tink.. wasting my time dere.. but to see the 2 preety gers.. but after all... not interested... sumhow i lost my interest in those idols... i rather see those who haf calibre and are tRULY talEnted and reAlly knoWs how to make and UnderStand music.... these pple are juz out there to earn our $$..... shit manz.....

i dunno la.. now i am in a middle of nowhere..... sick and tired of him, sick and tired of my life, sick and tired of everything i see... i need some motivation, i need some help, i need some attention, and i need some encouragement to keep me going... i may look strong and stern on the outside pple... but deep inside... i am a soft, and gentle person.. like everyone else.. i need someone to love and care and i can do the same to u...........

today i think thats all i am going to write for today.... *sigh* *sigh* buuei buuei! byee =[

9:47 PM Hey~~ hahahaha... today my article was published into the newspaper on the Singapore NEWpaper!! hahaha... summore the first part of it~ den put my name den followed by the age.. haha.. seems like i am the onli student there... hahahaa... soooo good man... i feels good to compete among the older SG citizens.. hahahaha.. feell sooooooo good to be able to whack these china students....

but then... today "she" came home early and was online for a rather long period of time.. hahaha.. i dunno if she said was true la.. she said she got a BBD (Broadband) connection... hahah.. impossible la.. suddenly so much cash to subsribe a new line and a BBD connection ? hahaha.. even me the fastest is 1mth get a new line, 1 new set of cable tv channels... hw can she upgrade so fast ? hahah.. strike lottery ? haha.. dunno la she... seems like shes drifting apart from me... hope that she can finish her work soon so that we can communicate more from either the phone or something...

anyway.. dun care bout her la.. at this rate i am saving up.. looks like i can go wakeboarding very soon lo !! hhahahahaha.. sooo excited about it... and at last and finally i can enjoy and learn something which i realli wanted to learn ~~ hahaha.. hehehee.....

OK la.. gotta end here and sleep early too... and the sickening weather is sooo hot... haf to bathe le den sleep lo... hahaha... BYee!! =]

10:57 PM Today was the so called 1 of the most memorable moments in my life.... cuz i went to write in to comment of the Newpaper report.. saying that we Singapore Youths are lazy, and feed on pigswill... i got soooo fed-up and wrote in.. and guess wad.. they decided to use my work... and interviewed me... hahaha.. then with relations to the quote made by our DPM Goh, saying that the Sg youths are ignorant and had a "bo chap" attitude... and i gave them my comments so remember to buy 2molo's issue of Newpaper !! hahahahaa... i will buy it onez.. hahahahahaha......

ok la.. today was rather nice la... hahah day quite well spent.. hmmm.. ok la.. i think i gonna end here... hope can write in 2molo~~ BUEI ~~

1:24 AM hmmm... its not 1.25am here... its a rather pointless day today.. did maths tys... sleep till 8.30 am.. then actually nothing happened la... so its rather boring today... then rotted the whole day today.. and nothing special happened today.. sooo bored... then juz now watch Contact.. at first.. it was rather "interesting" after that towards the ending... it was sooooo lame... nothing interesting but tons of lame stuffs.. wad go through worm-holes, visit some idiotic strange planets and funni looking places... and wad? hahaha... i think overall i will use a few words to describe this show.. and that is... "Freaking lame.... What a show..." then "she" changed her number today.. and she gave her new hp. to me... its like 8XXX XXX and how come theres a 8 in the front ?? i tot that all hp numbers have 9 in the front ?? sooo confusing.. i dunno manz.. 2molo better call her and confirm the number.. cuz juz now put in the number.. and its sooo freaking.. dun wanna talk about wad happened manz.. totally shitty....

how i wish i can call her later and talk 2 her.... hmm... realli.. i am stating the facts.. how i wish i could be with her every moment of her life.. talk 2 her, see her, and breathe the same air shes breathing....
i am in love with her for a long long time.... since when i cant tell u.. and its onli i who know... how long i have been finding her.... how hard is it to find a long lost person... and how it feels to be "re-united" once again...

"cong qian cong qian you ke ren ai ni hen jiu, dan pian pian, yu jian jian, ba ju li chui de hao yuan, hao bu rong yi, yu neng zai duo ai yi tian, dan gu shi de zhui huo ni hao xiang shuo le bai bai..... "

"len lou de dian hua. you da gei ni, xiang ting ni na bian de kong qi, you she mo qing cai de hua ti, ni hai shi wen rou, gei wo wan zhuan de ju li, wo de shen ying zai xiao, lei zai piao, dian hua na tou de ni ke zhi dao, shi jie rou shi na mou xiao, wei he wo de zhen xin ni ting bu dao?"

How i wish i can be there with you.. be there when u need me ? be there to support you, be there to stand up for u, be there to do everything for u.... y cant i be there when u needed somebody to encourage, and y cant u be there to motivate me ? encourage me? ..................................................


i dun wish to give u up... its not me.. but forgive for being me.... tell me your not leaving.. say u have changed your mind now... and i am not yet dreaming... this is not good-bye..this is not yet over... if you wanna know .. i wun let go.. saying isnt so...

Miss and Love u always.. forever u will lie in a special place in my heart.. a place where no one can replace you. cuz i cannot find anyone who can be better then u.. and becus of your special character that attracts me.. and its you that i find happiness in.. its you where i can confide my trust into.. and its you.. upon looking at you... it motivates me to carry on with wadever i am doing... and its you.. who gave me a new hope of light when i needed it most.. and its you who are the most impt in me... we first met at the station. our 2nd meeting place was the library, the third place was the Mos-burger, Jubilee... i do not wish that would be the last place we would be meeting each other... i dun want our friendship to drift away.. cuz you are someone special to me.. someone so impt that i cant bear to leave and give up....if onli u can realise your importance to me.. if onli you can feel wad and how i am feeling for you... every minute, every second... every moment....

" Till the stars dun shine any more, and the Sun dun rise up anymore. I Love You, Yue Yun"

Good Nite and Sweet Dreams..........

6:05 PM today.. it could be the darkest day of the so called happiness found...i called her ytd .. no answer.. and JUST NOW !!!! and i mean it.. JUZ now.. i called her... and the cellphone rang !! guess wad..... its realli realli sad.. cuz now i dunno wad she is trying to do.. maybe shes tryin to avoid me or sumthing.. but its like.. come on lehz... its sooo obsurd... she change her friendster acc.. to like restricted access onli if i add her... den its like... cant see her details... totally blank in my mind .. and now.. i dunno wad to say now. cuz i think shes starting to avoid me.... i dunno wad i can do now.. totalli lost.. and all of the sudden.. everything seem to be meaningless to me... everything suddenly turned colourless and totally moodless.. i do not know she will have access to this blogg.. but i guess she doesnt thats y i am writing all my personal feelings ......

*sigh* why muz things turn out like this ??? .......

now i feel like i am standing at the edge of the bottomless pit again..... preparing for the final jump into the never-ending darkness.....

*sigh* *sigh* *sob*

10:47 PM today... time seem to pass very fast.. i do not know th reason why.. and its so... i dunno how to describe it... a few moments ago...i tried to call her.. but she din answer.. i called her home using my home phone which will appear either by Private Line or no number on most telephone sets... hoping she will answer my phone.. but didnt.. i called her using my dad's phone.. and no answer too.. so i guess... the whole family is not at home ? maybe they went for a long weekend hangout in Msia or something... And today could be a turning point of my life as i decided to take up Wakeboarding as a new sport rather then rock-climbing.. i felt that i needed something like a more "addictive" sport... so a sport where styles, and stunts and tricks would be important to be prominent along the Singapore Waters.... therefore i will go learn them and the first thing is to find $150 for the 4 lessons for the begginers.....

hahaha.. actually today... i din haf much to say.. but to say.. today that ger.. tat rumored something about that ger's thingy bout her feelings to me.. that ger.. came walking my class 2 times in a day.. ARG !!! cant stand it... its soooooo blah! nothin to say manz.. i feel totalli shit up!! arg arg........and i din haf the chance to talk 2 her... and i am feeling abit down la.. and hope next week.. i can call her up.. and HOPE i can send her home on the 18th of this month....

speaking of the Ncc's cadet officer's course... should i go or not... hmmmmmmmm... i haf to spend 2 grueling weeks there... and i haf to re-learn everything... from Weapons.. Ar-16/M16 technical handlings, trainfire package... and Foot and Arms drills... den the Teaching part.. then the NE Ambassadors course... den all those crap crappy stuffs... i dunno if i can get in.. i think need to haf Prelims results of 20pts an below to enroll....sooo sad.. i dunno how manz.. and i will haf to return my uniform soon......

all my PRide, HonOr, and SweaAt and BlOod i haf shed on the uniform for 4 1/2 years... under hot sun, under the never ending rain.. i will soon return all my effort to ncc............ all.. my boots, shirts, pants, ranks, caps..... all... sooo sad... and if enrol.. it would mean.. new uniform, new berret, new boots and new stuffs... which will be sooo exciting.. hahahahahah.. ok la.. gotta end here.. anyone who reads this blog. and is interested in Wakeboarding.. u can actually email me or tell me via msn.. we can actually go wakeboarding together.. hahaha.. BYee =]

8:48 PM today.. went to take the NDP photos which i claimed to haf "her" image there.. den its like... sooo confusing as they realli look alike.. dunno who is who... so i scaned both the photos into the computer and place them side by side so i could compare them... and of course.. i wouldnt be sooooooooo stupid to send it to her and her which is her.. so i decided to send the photo to jesslyn so she could identify... at first she said both is her.. den i went to slam my head on the keyboard... den. she said.. wait~ i think its the one on the left... then i ask her to confirm... coz if its confirmed.. its good le.. then my words can be true that i am actually facing that onli pic of her since 8 Sept 2001.....

I asked 3 persons and all said the same thing.. den i think it comes to the final last few persons to check the authenticity of the photo... and to indentify the similarities.... hahaha.. send to forensics .. haha.. cannot la.. too ex.. i will die... too ex... IF IF IF IF IF.. its true that the photo on the right is her.. den i will be soo happy that i will first call for a small celebration lo.. haha

today.. after taking the photos, i went to post the items out... which is in AMK... den i decided to wait for "her" in the area.. but then, i was with a friend... we walked around her neighbourhood.. learning about her environment.. true enough... the place is so wonderful... filled with interesting things to see.... and theres like so mani places which a good and interesing.. for photography of course.. haha. den next we went to her block and went up to the last floor and i can actualli see the whole AMK central from there... its sooo colourful.. next time can take the camera and the photo from there... hahahaha........ kidding la.... den i think i am going to go there quite often to take some photographs on the parks.... so nice and quiet...

today.. i think i smsed her once.. but she didnt reply... i dunno her reason.. maybe its the same reason again.. she din on her handphone... i think i can buy that story again la.... theres nothin i can do about it since she doesnt wish to reply my sms.. when i msg her on the MSN, she din reply.. and i think i will haf to buy that story.. using 56K, doing hmwrk sommore so it will lag... i used 56K b4.. but y didnt it lag then ? then it was soo disturbing.. slowly day by day... she began to stay on the Internet longer.. and she will not reply my sms as often as b4.. it seems to me that shes drifting away from me.. time and time again.... i cant explain that.. it could be that... shes starting to avoiding me since i told her about the photos from NDP and my reason for looking for her...

I mistook jesslyn for her.. and i suffered the same thing.. i think even B4 i said that... she said it first: stay away from me... Eeew it was totally cold-hearted.. i din know her intentions of saying that.. but i think she has her own reasons for saying that.. i bought that reason too... i stared at the photo from AMK back to JE... but i think i cant make the difference out of them.. they look terribly alike.. at that point of time and i didnt think about it as i thought that the "public opinion" would be a more wiser choice as i couldnt make out the difference...

but then... 2molo will be the day that i will be calling her and "test" her reactions out... and hopefulli her attitude doesnt change... if she changes .. den i think it would be a totally bad news to me.... it would mean that my predictions were right.. she is avoiding me... if not.. then it would mean.. i would stand much chance.. more or less.. cant say.. i realli hope we can develop this.. cuz shes the one i am refering to.. as in looking for the past 3yrrs... it can be describe as first love.. but a first love that didnt come true... cuz i know... b4 her... there was someone before her...but then... now i know... now that i have found her... i am totally serious bout it and serious about her..... i haf found her .. and i wish i could give her my everything.. my life, my heart and soul.... everything i own... but will she accept it... she doesnt reply this and that.. dun do this and that.. does she have a reason for doing that.. i know its kinda rash to say such a thing now... but wad can i do.. i dun wanna lose her.. i dun wanna leave her... i do haf other options.. but do i haf the time left.. i am now on the Pre-Exam mood... preparing for the Final Battle against the Future... where my future is at stake, my life, My Blood and effort is at stake, My time, My everything is at stake.... i do NOT wish to lose that battle. i DO not wish to lose her.. and most of all... i DO not wish to lose everything i had and wish i owned them.. i do not want 2 haf regrets in the later part of my life... i failed b4... and i succeed b4... in relationships i have been in... there are failed ones and there are short-terms one... we were short terms couse i couldnt give her the happiness she wanted, i couldnt afford her expenses and worst of all.. i couldnt afford her classy taste... she know who she is... she came into my life as soon as i entered sec. school life... no one knows about her.. not even my closest friend.. we went out a couple of times... and on the 3rd month of the relationship.. we spent a total of 600+ juz on her accessories itself.. which is totally overwhelming taxing for me... i decided on the breakup and never meet each other again.. and that was in the secondary one stage.... on sec 2.. when i entered NDP.. in the year 2001... thats where i haf finally found the girl whom i wish to spend the rest of my life with.. cuz i know.. somehow i know.. i dunno how i know.. but i know..... theres no one that could be compared to her... as mentioned on the previous posts and entries... i mentioned about giving up the search for her last year... but then... it was a failed attempt as i couldnt find her shadow on her... now that... i haf finally found her.. i know this feeling cannot be decribed by words... its totally un-understandable... ... i want to devote to her.. and hopefully she could do the same... i dun wish to suffer another unreciprocated love... cuz i felt the pain b4.. i know how its like.. the pain i have been through.. its not anyone who can understand.. worse then isolation.. worse then exilation... its such a torment to my life.. .. cuz suddenly.. i would enter a world where theres no such thing as trust, love, miracles, religion, culture and even colour.. everthing seemed to turn black and white.. and then it was like .. everything i eat.. it tastes bland.. everything i see it would be either black and white.. everything i do.. totally moodless... totally stoned.. when that all comes together.. thats when all hell in me break loose.. where everyones under my commands suffers.. suffer physical and mental torture.. where the faces the terror side of me.. where i dun smile. i dun dn crack jokes, i dun clown around and i dun make other pple day anymore.. cuz my heart is totally shattered.... totally dead...
i do not want and wish to relive that anymore.. cuz i know... with now.. if i were to go back to tat time and space again... i will suffer more and longer then before.. cuz this is the woman who i loved for a long time and it has never changed since 2001.. i has never change and it will never change till the end of time.... cuz i know... i somehow know...

if 1 day.........






on fateful day.........








if you are going to read this...........








i will be away for a very long time...............








i dun wish to leave you................








cuz deep inside my heart.. theres onli you.....








and theres no one in this world that can replace you.......








and if those words are that difficult to say....








i will say it here.. and say it infront of you when the time come....








and I will take you in my arms and hold u right where u belong








till my day is through...








I Love U.

8:50 PM today.. realli sian in school.. but then.. things got worse when i got home.. first thing.. as usual on the computer.. surf the net.. BUT today things got a bit of difference.. instead of getting into MSN first.. i got into friendster first.. taking a lookout for any changes.. which might occur.. not gonna elaborate on why i did that... However.. while i was surfing.. i came across her Profile and i went through her testimonials.. theres this friend of hers.. when she mentioned: U ar... always lookin out for your errrhum....

this is realli disturbing to me... theresfore i juz took it as some kinda joke or prank which her friend might be playing on her... Then.. i juz tot of maybe i could test her out... i asked her.. where can i find the shop that make monthly contact lenses where theres no need to purchase the 6mths package... she replied me.. but i cant see any change in tone.. and then.. i din call her.. as i am afraid that things might get worse.. if i were to bring that thing up again... But then.. 2molo i will get down to PCSS and get my photos back... in hope. i can get my NDP photos back.. which i think i did include her photo in... i need the photo as a prove that i did liked her before 3years ago.. Since 8th September 2001.. searching for her secretly.. nobody knows about this cuz i want to keep it to myself. .. not even my best buddies will know bout this.. and i want to apologise to val whom i cheated her into believing me that i realli waited for 3 yrs.. i din mean to do it.. i was naive at that point of time.. taking you for her... even though i know that i didnt find her shadow on you.. but i cheated my own feelings and cheated myslef into liking you and falling for u... but deep inside.. the hurt i have been through... no words can describe... i gave up looking for her until one day... through Friendster.. i managed to find her... and all thanks to that webby.. i managed to find her.. and made contacts and links...

i have at last found her.. after 3 years of grueling hardwork... i finally found her.. but not soon enough... soon i realised that she is admiring someone.. from SR.. which i think so.. cant say for sure.. but quite confident he is from SR.. therefore i am not going to let her go this time.. cuz i haf come so far.. and i have search high ups and deep downs for her.. and at last and finally....

i do admit.. it's not her appearance that attracts me but her character which attracts me... it hard to find such pple of such character.... most of them.. blinded my materialistic ideas, filled with greed and intentions... but i find her so pure and straightforward and and truthful....

Everynight.. i will think of her... dream of her.. and think of her every moment very second... and even when i talk 2 some one whos a nice femals friend of mine... i feel extremely guilty... cuz i know deep inside me.. theres onli one place in my heart which i can onli accept one.. and thats her... and no one can truely replace her.. i remembered one word which i told val. " In order for me to 4get u. I will mean i will have to find the special someone who is 100 times better then you" and i have proved myself right... i have found my true love and indeed i am definately serious about it... nothing in my life can be compared to her.. except my acdemics... for her, i gave up my once-ago occupation.. being a idol photographer.. being a song writer, being a journalist, being critic.. now facing a new change and total make over, i intend of being a nature photographer, a swordsman....learning the art of Kendo and of course taking up new extreme land sports since i have mastered almost all of seasports...

Every Night, Every Day, Every Moments and seconds.... she appear in the back of my head... pushing me on... but i know deep inside.. is she feeling the same as i do ? is she aware of my feelings towards her ? wad is she going to do if oneday she realised the truth tat i have fallen for her since 2001 ? wad will she do ? is she going to do the same thing which all girls will do ? reject me ? ignore me ? avoid me ?

I have no talents, i have no guts to tell her.. i know now i love her more than anithing and anyone.. i dun wan to leave her.. and i dun wish to leave her.... i call her up.. hoping that listening to her voice.. it will bring me closer to her.. and her closer to me... and eliminate the distance between us..

i dunno hw she is feeling now.. and i want to know if she have changed her attitute towards me... cuz i know now.. i am totalli serious about this relationship i wan to be in... its not the distance.. its not the finance its not bout anything.. but its the feeling, its the though that counts.... its the feeling of her of me.. its the thoughts that she have of me... that counts...

i am totalli moodless now.. cuz theres almost practically nothing for me to say here... cuz now... a piece of heart has fallen into the bottomless pit.... splitting into pieces.. bleeding and a deep scar that never healed.. now it awaits her love and care so that the heart can be retrieved and be treated and cured..... if one day... if she were to read this page on any particular day... i would definately hope that she would realise that my love for her.. is not any other ordinary love.. but a pure heart filled with love and care.......... how far we will go.. it has been decided by God, Destined and Fated.... but i believe its our own lives, we are the master of our lives, controller of our destiny and the believer of your own fate.. cuz wad lies in your hands is your own life.. u life it.. not God. not Destiny not Fate, but U.. who is the ultimate master.

The difference between man and animals is that We Humans haf the Will, Determination and the Intelligence far more superior to any living matter on earth. Cuz animals are totally babarbaric and they do not think about themselves thats why they will forever be controlled by man..

" My love for you will never change. Even if it means that the sun dun shine and the stars don't sparkle... I will love you and stand-by you till the end of time and till i breathe my last... i shall support you in anything u do.. If i am to be given a chance on how i wish to live my next life.. i will choose to live my next life with you to be lifetime lovers and go through with thick and thin together.. and even if i would live in a world of poverty.. i will be willingly to live in that place if we were lifetime lovers and i will die a happy man if i can do that... i swear to God. i will die a happy man with no regrets..."

11:18 PM Weee~ today... i went to repair my camera.. but din get it repaired cuz it will cost me $200+ juz for an anitque camera.. then the shop owner gave me a package, a trade in and pay another $500 for a fully functional professional Nikon F90x with 80-200mm lens and a MB-10 VG. hahaha.. but haf to talk to my dad for his comments.. cuz its his 1979 vintage camera.. hahahaa.... then went to do some shopping at the Korean Supermart.. ahahha.. bought some candies home... juz to fill up some empty containers...

And today.. i actually chatted with yue yun on the phone for 2 hrs !! hahaha.. we talked on sooo much things.. haha... it has been ages since i last chatted for 2hrs.. hha.. and seems like cannot finish de.. but then haf to end the conversation cuz she haf to sleep.. she tired le. ... hahaha.. then we were guessing who will be the America's Sexxiest pple.. haha.. did i get that word rite ?? hahaha.. nvm... we talked soo much thing today... now can actually sleep without thinking bout other things.. but her onli.. then the thing was that.. i found her pic at Friendster.. so nice and cute too... XD.. to me la... i dunno bout those who are going to read this bloggies.... hahaha.. then i got Jesslyn's gown pix.. soooo sexy.. haha =x... haha.. but then.. too bad la.. she another Christian !@#$% ... so i dun like de.. tooooooo christian already.. hahaha.... and abit tooo ang moh.. dunno hw to speak chinese... hahahaha

my mind already shocked lioaz.. haha.. hahahahahhaha dunno wad to say manz... but looks like its true la.. she rather open bout this topic " Lesbianism" which is soooo = . - !! and i know that she hate this bunch of pple called "butch" hahahaha =.- !! also another crap i think.. then she told me she dun realli look at guys.. but then she look at gers more... *scared**scared* i wonder if she is those type... NAHZ !! NO LA !! NO NO NO !! Shes Perfectly NORMAL !!! hahahahahahha... normal to me la... hahahahahaa. .. . . .. . . . .. .

Lets see.. she having her Affirmation at 18th.. shall i wait for her at AMK and send her home ?? haha.. surely i will TRY and date her out on good Friday.. but then.. where to go ?? hahahha..... totally NO IDEA.. hahahhaa............. no idea manz.. hahaha.... lets see... go orchard ? BORING !! go Sentosa ?? dunno... go where go where ?? suggestions ?? hahahahahhhahaha hahahahahahah... ok la.. gotta end here... bYEE !! sooooo happi !!