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Friday, September 30, 2005
its called the Celtic Predator from the movie. ok.. at shops its selling for $150... amazing lah... $150 for a masterpiece figurine... should have bought earlier duing the movie premire period.. tat time it cost about $35-40 a piece.. not $150!!!! 3 times the frigging price.. i think because this piece was more detailed tats why... this the pic on hw it looks like thou...  guys.. if u happen to see one that is on display and its gg for under $50. do gimme a call immediately. i will "pia" cab now and grab it man.... anyway... since 2pm. i am having some realli bad headaches.... so i guess i am going to bed soon again... very painful thou... no one will care one anyway... i shall go back and sleep and forget everything... hate the weather today... totally sucked... it rained and because it rained. i cant go out and shoot! shit.. now i have to wait till my camera is back. and even when its back. i dun think i can even go shooting cos my exams would be just round the corner.... shit lah.. stupid weather... sian 1/2 already.... Thursday, September 29, 2005
hahahhhahaaha !!! yay ! love u nikon !! The indications that qualify for free parts replacement.. 1) The electronic analog exposure display becomes unreliable with shooting, the exposure display always shows the same settings (does not change), images are over or underexposed. 2) Autofocus fails and the camera is unable to focus automatically. hehehehee.. i guess both also haf.. coz when i shoot i shoot from experience, and with flim camera. i nv got a underexposed picture. cuz with 8yrs of experience in flim, i gt no problems handling flim and its exposure at all... ok.. now i know why i got so much post processing to do.. lucky theres a Nikon Capture and PS CS to help me out.. if not i would be dead by now... yay!! darn happy. ytd weichen made my day shine. today its nikon made my day shine !! yayay !!!! i am smiling as i am typing all these.. hahahahahaa !! Wednesday, September 28, 2005
I wish to be forgiven Yes. I want to be forgiven A burden ? If there is no helping to that. you will have to deal with that. Unless you want to live all alone... you will have to deal with that... have we lost to our memories ?? can Sin be forgiven ? ..... Tuesday, September 27, 2005
so i tried to sell off some of my unwanted cds at cheap prices lah.. at least $5 cheaper den others... ok shall end here.. gtg sleep now!!!! ok.. u guys can go see the auctions.. but please. for god's sake. dun go and bid if u are not interested. thanks ah.... this is the linkie... hehhee http://user.auctions.yahoo.com/sg/user/oakley_870 this guy. same secondary school as me. but i didnt like him one single bit, because he is those who have obvious split personality. and when we were in the same school, he would act as if he is he king o' the school..(he was some councillor lahs..) he thinks hes handsome, go round asking for female student's number. dated them dump them. he really tot he was tat handsome la. he was rather a show off, as usual... i may sound jealous, but in secondary school, he never got in my way. its that simple. but the sight of him irks me... and a few co-operation experiences with him, and he was those type of pple who would give his support to my female counter-parts rather then me.. anyway. i never liked him since day 1 when he introed himself to me that he was from ncc seeking some advice. and btw hes one of those type of pple i mentioned in the blog. "If you have a loathsome personality,even if you are decked in the most expensive togs, you are still a bitch.Or a son of a bitch. And if your are one of those who judge people by what they wear,all I can say is: You are sad." <---- same.. he belongs to this category... he thinks he lives in the upper class of the society too. when what he can afford is jus cheap tees and jeans.... and yes.... hes realli those types who goes around cheating girls.. hw i wish i can cast a spell and kill everyone on this face of the planet who goes around cheating girl's feelings where i who wish to be faithful cant even be there to show them love... today. i saw him. at the interchange while gg home. standard procedure, he changed his so called steady again.. (not as if i care...) i kept turning back looking at me. hoping i will say hi or what to him. but too bad. i am nt very familar to him. so guess tats a one look and walk off. and boarded the same bus eventually... i sat all the way to the back just to make sure i dun look at his retart face. and yes. a series of unlucky things happened. like... a serious road accident which caused a traffic jam for 35mins... made me slip and drop a glass saucer... =.-!! (i wasnt clumsy alrite!!) and erm... yah... the whole day is ruined. because gt suay shen. anyway.. had a bad day... EA games called lah... mus be about the recruitment thingy... ................... bad day....... i should not let a pest/cockroach spoil my day... blardy bugger... i shall go switch my mind off my playing some games... ..... blardy @$$ !*&.... What is important to you ? I pity those who understands nothing... There is nothing that isnt Important. I will fight for the smile on their faces... Stay there for me. Trapped in Memories.... Monday, September 26, 2005
and i can say is... they LOOK darn REAL. but sound darn K.I.D.D.O !!!! the m-16 stupid lor.. super macam real.. den when u press the trigger.. this sound came off. "Fire ! Fire ! Bang.. Bang... Bang..... " and i was like.... super turned off..... and the box wrote... " Realistic Sound " " Vibration..." wth... cheat my feelings.. and i tot this will be the end.... it actually has lights... !! coming out from the flash suppressor... AHhhhhh... turned off... stupid... ( = . = !! ) my ncc boys... very pai seh ah.. gotta dissapoint u guys for a while again. i will go source for new weapons for the Fibua i mentioned... =[ i too.. equally dissapointed with u guys.. in fact i am more heartbroken... travelling up and down is expensive these days.. ok anyway... 2 things happened today other den the morning incident which made me rather happy... one is the SANA people called me today and asked if i could be their course conductor or speaker or in simpler terms a lecturer for the course. well.. i was delighted at first, because i finally can join my shooting buddies in the ranks of being lecturers and doctors... heh!! eh. at the age of 18, and can be a lecturer or speaker is not bad already.. but when i heard i had to face a audience of 300 and more.. i immediately had jelly legs and i told the person on the phone that i may need a course for this large capacity cos i never handled so mani people before, and the largest number i handled is onli 180 cadets... and 300 is actually doubled lor... so he say he will contact me realli soon... and next was NKF, they asked if i am interested to join some digital photography course by Canon. so well.. since its free. i might as well go ahead... hahahaha.. free wad... and its photography.. go and listen lor.. no harm wad..... hahaha.. so many things happened today... kinda goooood..... hehehehehehehehhehe.. ^ ^ nice day to end with.. but anyway. i was amazingly early for school as in i left home 15mins earlier den the usual timing of 6.30. but still freaking missed the 98 bus !! i dunno wth happened to the bus schedual.. but i missed that freaking bus and ended up squeezing with those JSS pple in the 187bus, oh man.. terrible.. and the bus didnt ON the darn air-conditioner !!!!!!!!!!!! ok.. nvm.. took onli a few stops before alighting at lakeside... hehehhehee... ok.. i heheh rite.. and if u tot that i met my that chinese garden eye candy.. den u are wrong... i saw another one. she was from AJc. oh well...actually took the same bus together, only that i didnt realise her.. she was standing behind me all the while. and not until jurong east where we both alighted together and sat in the same train compartment.. (some call it train carriage), we both sat directly opposite one another, and i couldnt stop looking at her!! (darn it!!!) so i changed places and moved to the end to the seat which had the glass panel beside it... and hope it would be a better option. but erm... nt i bhb ok... this time she moved her seat too! and she is there. sitting in front of me again!!! and i was like couldnt stop looking at her, and i know she's looking at me(ehs! i am nt being bhb, but u can bash me for being bhb..) ... coz theres time where i was arranging my stupid drawings and shes there reading her "shou che" those stupid chinese handbooks lah.. i dunno wads that cos i can hardly understand what the chinese is writing, and although i can express pretty well.. but i cant read and comprehend formal chinese forms... =p anyway.. the process of looking at her, looking at me started from JE all the way till it ended at YCK where she alighted... and thats where i know shes from AJC.... lol... hope i dun sound like some despo lah! actually i am not.. simply because i had the opportunity to write what happened today that made my day rather unusual.... ok.. a few days back.. i had this funny dream.. and i kept forgetting to blog it down.. so i guess i am nt gonna forget this time.. ------- this is hw it goes.. i was sitting in the front seat of a bus. i can remember that this bus is those type of travel bus got 32 seats one... and theres a few pple who is involved in this dream..(oh hell! i didnt how u guys got urselves into my dream alrite! and ok lah. this dream isnt those bad one like kenna chased by animals or what lah... but more of a dramatic one la..) i was sitting there alone. i think i was reading something until someone came up. and she look like (Y.Y) yes.. correct. i dunno hw on the mother earth she entered the dream. but i know we sounded friendly ? cos i know i told her something like "u are gg 2 be soo dead later.." *in a friendly tone ok.....* den she replied "we shall see. but i think u are the dead one... haha!!" *ok i was like huhs ?* den someone who look exactly like her boarded the bus ?? (i hope its not the NJC one... =.=!!) i guess its not... but both of them sat together.. behind me.... den this girl. i know shes younger den me. and is a friend of theirs. i dunno hw she got involved with them, but all 3 of them began some conversation... and a sudden (OoooHHhhhh...) came along lah.. its in a surprised tone.. den both the (Y.Y) and the so called twin turned their heads and look at me with a surprised look like this -- > ;) *the facial expression is like the one on bon jovi's latest cd cover haffa nice day.... that one... and erm... this is gonna get all mushy and cold!!! pls be prepared if u are going to continue reading.. coz this is what happened next in the dream i dunno hw i came to know. but this girl who is younger den me. told them that she hasa crush on me ?? omg.. that stupid dream made me sleep 13-15 hrs straight... and the scene switched to a stadium / swimming pool ??????? i dunno.. coz theres fences and stuffs and from wad i can remember from the intensity of the sunlight, its around 4-5plus already.. so i was sitting there pondering abt the crush thingy.. sitting there... thinking thinking.. untilllll.. i heard a screeching of car tires.. and (Y.Y) / so called twin came running to me saying that the girl was hit by a vehicle lah.. and when i ran there, she was there... bleeding ... and before i can be there to hear her last words, she lifted her hands in the air, reaching for me i believe and having something to say, and before i could be there beside her, shes there.... dead... --- end of the wonderful/scary/whatever u call it dream... omg... stupid dream.. after that i woke up.... terrible.. this dream is soooooo stupidly real that i can remember it for 3days... omg.. even now i can still remember it...... ok.. its all a dream lah... and i wanna say... hey sorry for those who didnt know u entered my dream the other day.coz seriously i didnt know hw u got in also......... apologies. esp those who tot i hated u. and esp those who walked away from you. those whom i gave up trying my hopes on. i am sorry that u entered my dream the other day. but seriously i didnt know.... but anway its all a dream. hope u guys dun mind ok ?? eh.. hw come my buddy didnt enter the dream ? i guess she would make the scene less tense lah... but she didnt come...... ahdoi! maybe u too busy rite.... lol.... i guess tats all for now. before i blog again later in the afternoon. ( ^ ^!: ) apologies ahs...... i guess the dream was more like a experience/memory worth writing it down... Sunday, September 25, 2005
so i waited from 2.30 till 4.34pm.. i had alot of patience rite ? surprised huh ? i can actually wait for 2hrs plus before giving up waiting... (who says i have short temper anyway...i have lots of patience, and when i give up giving in, thats when i flare up... ) and arrrgghh... no choice, so decided to pay a visit to a shop in Peninsula at sold "almost real" mock weapons.. for those who are interested, they actually sold mock weapons of the following models a) Colt M-16 S1 b) Colt M-16 S2 c) Colt M-16 S3 d) Colt M4 Carbine (AKA) Colt M-16 M4 e) P-90 Assault Rifle f) H&K MP5 Navy g) H&K MP5 Army cool or what huh.... and a pistol is selling for $9.90.... bwahahaha.. can pass of as real thou... i will post pics of it when i have acquired the weapon. i actually intended to get the M4 and Mp5... kinda cool to have them pinned up on the wall thou... and so... yah.. kinda sad lah.. tat friggin bugger didnt come and met us... ggrr !! read a blog today some quotes i think its realli meaningful... it wrote: If you have a loathsome personality,even if you are decked in the most expensive togs, you are still a bitch.Or a son of a bitch. And if your are one of those who judge people by what they wear,all I can say is: You are sad. kinda real lah... couldnt agree further... this blog is one i could relate to also... realli close to life.... i also linked it from here. do check it out.. ^^ & ( = . =! ) Saturday, September 24, 2005
too bad.. dreams are dreams... still drifting away... 2molo i am gg to get 2 more exercise books ! cant believe i finished 3 of them already. and since previously used foolscap paper so i didnt realised hw fast i was gg... sigh.... so many things to do. so little time. O lvl practical is round the corner !! *stressed.....* i am telling u. i wanna scream out. but i cant. i am feeling stressed. i wanna shout it out aloud. i wanna scream all my woes out !! i wanna scream my lungs out so u can hear me.... i am stressed.... i dun show it because its not me.... u cant see that i am struggling inside. my soul is being tormented by flames. wings clipped. and my weak physical self, engulfed in flames.... screaming for help inside... but theres no one out there to salvage this soul trapped in the hellish flames... stressed... i cant go out and enjoy because work is filling up like elephant shit. while everyone can go out and haf fun, they go out and work. while i stay at home do shit work..... i need cooling off. but cant... sigh..i guess this week will be hectic. cannot relax.shit. tensed up... Drifing..Drifting away.... i want my life. i want things to be as they were.i know this is all a nightmare. its all going to end when i wake up. its all a nightmare.... ........ ( = . = ) Friday, September 23, 2005
ahahaha.. we were in the boatman office when viknesh played the bangalah sound clip... lol.. i know i have been hearing this crap for so many times, but its still very funni lah.. i dunno why. but it always tickles me when i hear the poor bangalah struggling to scold the old ah beng back... hahahahahaha.... realli funni. i shall ask for the files... lol. damn funni.. and so i was in the office, and slept from 10am 10 1pm, where sir actually bought lunch back... hehehe.. *free lunch* whaahahahaha.... boatman terrence den say." whao lao.. glenn. u come here study, sleep den "pian jia" den mark paper den siam issit?" hahahaa.. den er.. as usual my reply was "still ok lah.. at least i worked by marking papers okay..." hahhah.. den ermm yah... terrence continued eating this chicken wings.. lol... den we read the newpaper... and crap about the "rumoured" new mrt lines, and how to go about bombing it.. hahaha!! i know its lame.. but er... we kinda jokeed around for it until i dunno hw we ended up talking about pple having their testicles cut or bitten off lah... tats one frigging dunno-wad-to-say joke lah... and pple kept saying hitler's testicles was bitten off by a goose taats why he got angry and waged war with other countries.... *BWAHHAHAHA!!!* ok.. i also dunno hw we gt into the conversation anyway. i was there listening onli while the senior officers are talking about it... lols.. oh well.. i didnt actually learnt something new today. but by observing, i did at least learn by observing how others did it. and yes..... we learnt how to pluck coconuts LEGALLY... lol... its on our own turf of land. tats why.. hahahahaa... we plucked fresh coconuts from the trees and learn how to chop it open... hahaha... and enjoyed super fresh coconuts under the hot sun and disturbed chickens... lol... macam like kampong in a city... we plucked like 5 coconuts from the tree lahs... and theres some joke that this will be a training for us.. *durhhh...* wth... i was like freaking out... cant imagine us climbing trees like monkeys and plucking coconuts.. but it was a joke lah... hahahahahahahaha, but i know my unit which started 50 years ago had a tradition where cadets had to climb the trees to get coconuts lah.. haha.. lucky it was scraped before i was even born !! .... *lucky me...* ok lah today. nt so bad after all... BBSS came today. big unit thou... we had 70+ cadets and it was almost total chaos when they are moving from one station to another.. freaking noisy... and to save cost lah... i actually "tompang" their bus back from their school and took 157 back home.. and it was onli 4 bus stops away onli.. heheheheheheheh.. saved 90cents of mrt fare.. *i sound like a cheapo..* but no choice lah.. no $... 1 week no pocket money.. and the next week i guess it will be the same... sigh.... psst.. i watched Advent Children 4 times officially, and still not tired.... hehehe.. i am sick la rite... but hey.. i like the fighting scenes onli.. esp when Cloud gets his limit breaks out.. whaha.. tats when things get outta hand.. and the final scene where he battle sephiroth and he had this mega black wing out to cover him as he morphs back to Kadaj, but the concept of the black wing covering the summoner is actually a borrowed concept from the FF9 scene where the Eidilon Alexander was summoned to protect itself from Bahamut's flare attacks, so Alexander raised it wings wide open and apparently it was black, and when it was about to fight back, the wings became white and it shoots out loads of small flares and engulfs bahamut with shots of Holy Fire. if i got its magic correct.. heh.... and i am a super fan of FF lah. tats why i kinda remembered their GFs/ Eidilions and magics, character's names and so mani... lol... but nothing beats FF8 in its storyline.... whahahahahha... ok.. i guess i was super tired thats why didnt continued to blog in the nite.. i slept throughout till 5am the next day... =p ok. i guess today i wrote practically in detail about what happened today thou... Drifting.. Drifting away...... Thursday, September 22, 2005
cmi liao. slept in class for 2hrs, train didnt sleep at all.. coz got these 2 schoolmates asking this and that... nvm lah. anyway. i will still maintain neutral status. super tired... feel like ponning 2molo and join mervin to ubin and rush back ... but i dunnooo i know mervin is gonna kill me when i say i am nt joining him 2molo... and he is returning back from Paris to hear that i am no going... *embarassed* dunno hw to tell him... i will write in again if i managed to sleep enough and not lasting till 12am later.. hahaha.. ...... ( x .. x) Wednesday, September 21, 2005
i gotta study faster and reinforce this topic.... jus before i woke up.. i had the most interesting dream so far... i was wondering who is the girl in the dream ??? shit. cant see her face at alll... but i was in the world of my dreams where i was driving a car.. dunno wad brand, and living in a hse on top of the hill, and erm... theres a scene of a ship or yatch. i dunno... i dunno hw that scene gt into my head.. but this dream was interesting i would say.... whos that girl in my dreamm........ pls own up... =p ( = . = !!! ) Tuesday, September 20, 2005
although the lecturer is not gg to expect so much from me since i am redirecting my priorities to my finals. but i guess its still my responsibility to submit quality works. sigh... i dunno how am i going to handle this.but i am going to make sure i have enough time for maths and science. i dunno why i go school today. but i did. wasted 4-5hrs of my time there. jus to do one stupid PIE mindmap. grrr........ i would have stayed at home and studied maths and do my mindmapping later... so now i am practically officially 52hrs behind schedual. and i am gg to be so dead when the week ends..... i am suppose to finish my syallabus by 20 september. and now ???not even 3/4 finished! shit.... i feel so like faster piaing all my maths now and forgo all my sch things... but i know i cant. i will not let my position being taken away because of my own slackness. if its not enough. i will give it all. even if it costs me my life and health. i will do it. we are talking about pride here.. P.R.I.D.E here.... sry weichen if i didnt reply ur sms jus now. if u could tell me earlier. i would be in town, we yah. we could be doing things that u mentioned in ur sms.. *hiak hiak hiak...* but hey.. i am totally newbie in that ok... maybe u gotta teach me lor... i super lousy in that... ok wait after ur As is over den talk abt all these fun things lah.. now i believe both of us have more serious things waiting for us in the end of the year.... after 22nd November. when its all over! i will regain my wings of freedom once again !! and first thing i wanna do is.. erm..... go camping outside and dun go home for the whole night and roam singapore !!! whahahahahaa.... explore the night places in singapore. and not the night and hot spots i mean... oh noo.... gotta go sleep.. coz later gotta wake up and mug maths !!! Ahhhh !!!!! tata~~ ^ ^.. i dunno. i guess i was right after all... i was struggling to understand things immediately rather then taking the time to understand them which i think i should do. guess yesterday was rather gloomy... obviously she changed alot i believe. but i guess more interaction is required. i cant tell if we are just talking over the screens of msn.. glenn yong.. give urself summore time.... i must understand my situation now. its nt the time to joke around. its not the time to play a fool. its now or never. pass my exams now and i shall leave this desolate place once and for all... glenn yong... what u need is time. time will prove it all. dun give in. if she was the One that the Oracle mentioned, then the time is now. however time has not proven that shes the One that the Oracle mentioned. glenn yong.... i guess its time to leave everything behind. pack up. and continue moving forward... the Oracle did make your life terrible once. It promised you this and that. In the end it didnt and it turn out to be a disaster. Who are you now ? Are u still the same or did you change somehow ? wad did u do ? at this moment when i think of u ? when i think back... do u remember that ?? i still care about u. thou everything has been said and done. now look at me. instead of moving but i am still coming back. i tried to fight it and cant deny it. and you dun even know. i guess i am much better now... feeling better... jus wanna write down the reasons on why the sudden change tats all. gooooooooooooooooooooooooooood mooooooooooorning ! its now 5.16am.. Monday, September 19, 2005
i never believed in forever. because when one says that. it means its all over. clues how i am gg to live my life. clues to what my future has installed for me. clues to everything. theres so many questions i ask myself. too little time. too little answers. i ask if i can find the one who will make me complete. i said yes. and i ask again. when i can i find this person who can make me complete ? i replied. i dunno..... i wanna take this chance to ask myself again. do i see a future of a development ? in my eyes. i cant tell. because simply its far to complicated for me to assume/ predict or to even foresee. a development i wish... a development of so many things... an advancement in life. a development plan. now i want you soo much ? why ? dunno wad to say ? never meant to feel this way. dun wanna be alone tonight.... sometimes i hate this feeling sometimes i dun. sometimes its good to be alone. sometimes its not... but i cannot pretend that we are friends tat we are meant to be like this.... i dun wanna make this lie. its not me... I'd be your shining star The one to show you Where you are Does he know what you feel? Are you sure that it's real? Does he ease your mind Or does he fake your stride? Did you know that Love could be a shield? Ever since I saw your face Nothing in my life has been the same I walk around just saying your name Without my world would end, yeah Look around this old damn place And everything's as well.. the song is very the old school and the bubble pop type lah... from some kinda famous band in the ancient past.. u gotta go figure out what song is that.. well.. like i said. i sometimes would go into deep thinking. and thats when my brain becomes chaotic. as if theres a tsunami inside... and yah... i dunno.. i know i feel abit dissapointed. i know why lah.. but it realli shows how typical we all can get. the way she talks. exactly hw weifen talks to me in the past. even now. i guess she still treats me the same way...its realli kinda i dunno... i feel a sudden stab into my chest when i see someone whom i treasure alot talk like her. it makes me dunno want to be sad or what... when memories of the past flashes back... anyway. its all in the past. dun wish to carry on talking about the sad past of mine... sudden lost.. blank mind... i must recover immediately... nvm lahs... got no choice.. i am at my classmate's shope watching Final Fantasy Advent Children... lols... teacher was sick.. so on mc. and we got 2days no lesson too... actually tot i could meet u at town and yah lor.. but seems like cant ... so can say too bad lahs... *dissapointed...* nvm... wads wrong with my phone anyway... cant receive sms ? but hw come my fellow clt's can sms me ??? wads wrong ?????? grrrrrrrrrr.................. ...... ..... ..... nvm.. today everything very last minute and immediate.. sigh.. and yes. i saw the blind champion from the project superstar show today at city hall mrt... he was walking with the stick to guide him around.. apparently he cant see at all.. and yes! theres a few "snipers" around secretly taking his pics of him talking to female supporters of his.. whad is this world coming too ???? .. ( x .. x )! Sunday, September 18, 2005
and a upgrade is neccessary. i believe. where a new lens have to come in to replace the existing one. yeah. weichen told me about this nature conservation funds. in fact i was rather happy that at least someone is out there helping us to conserve all these nature parks so that we can continue watching these magnificiant creatures pit-stopping at our nature reserves. when she talked to be about mentally worried and frightened ? i dunno what she means. and if it was related to that guy named "xxxxxxx" den i guess i can understand what does she meant. but well. the message that i am trying to get across is simply incomprehensible. anyway. she keeps saying that shes worried and frightened and stuffs.i told her not to think so much already. but i guess its of no avail ?this must be the signs of stress thou i believe. and yes! i know u are getting ur phone later lah.. lol.. shoik lah u... new phone. while i am using the jurassic park 6810. whaha.. sian. ok. ytd actually slept at 3.30pm to allow the post-processing to continue. however!! 99.94% of the pictures turned out soft. lost details.over burned surfaces and etc etc. and previously i could crop at 66.7% but now.. i cant even crop at 50%. the pictures are super soft. i am realli interested in capturing these avians but seems like the equipment is posing some really great challenges. in short the lens does not possess sufficient reach and its slow. considering the fact that the lens is now functioning as a 400mm stacked. even someone of within my age range is using a 400 f/2.8. which is 2 stops faster den my lens and its a prime L canon lens. i dun ask for much seriously. i would realli hope for a 600mm f/4 AF-I beaten up condition lens. but it cost about 2-3k USD. sigh... and at least i could get extremely decent image from it. guess i have to wait for the day i win some lottery or what. sigh. it seems realli far fetched. so infact from 4pm till 7am. i was sleeping... all the way. and waking up a few times to reply to sms.hahahas.. amazing. oh wells.. ytd was fun because mervin was there again.. making the birds come in with is "bird language" and eric was there using weird english... first time. i hear this new term to describe blurness/cock up- ( cockernathanly / cockernatheness ) hahaha.. amazing to hear such words from a doctor.. hahahah!!!!!! anyway. hope to get fundings to fund my equipements... sigh... Life will guide you whole. Love will guide you the most. if only i could make you close your eyes and reach out for me? what would you do if i were to walk away one day? walk away and never return ? who doesnt feel frightened ? who doesnt harbour fear in ones heart ? Fear is nothing until you learn to over come it. Its a lesson of Courage you have to learn. Courage is not absence of fear. But Mastery of Fear. Fear is nothing but a emotion. The moment you learnt that Fear is nothing and having to overcome it. Fear will soon turn into a new strength in You. Understanding Fear. Mastery of Fear and not Absence of Fear.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
i jus realised that my 2 officers accepted my msn adds. hahahhs! and i saw SG Pan's friendster. omg. the cute side of him.. whahaha!!! i didnt know my officer so cute de lah... haha =p oh well.. signing off now... and yes ! i am on my favourite maths topic !! areas and areas stuffs lah !! hahahas..... =p hmm. ytd. i was simply irritated + fustrated + Irritated. simply because the first half of the day was too peaceful for studying in sch. i am not making racist remarks. but happen that the most irritating and most childish group belongs to the non-chinese group at the far end of the class. i for one do not tolerate people who doesnt show minimum respect to others. where both maturity and consideration plays a big part in becoming who u wish to be in the future. *What is your Purpose here in Product Design ? To Learn ? To Sing ? To Shout ? To enjoy the relax life of being in a Product Design Class ? To Do what you like ? i guess those buggers are here to pass time. They do not show interests. They are here because the course promised easy life in the course. Airconditioned classrooms. and the recent Liberation. Because the lecturer allowed music. and i guess thats where all Hell break loose. Loud Music. Wanna-bes. Whatever shit crap nonsense will be coming out of their speakers and mouths when the very moment they step into the class. My buddy asked me to mix around with them. but! do they even have the maturity to speak to me ? DO they have the intelligence i seek ? the Answers i find ? Do they even bothered to care about the World around them ? No. Simply because they live in a World of their own. I am pissed. Sick of them. Its not that i do not accept music. But at least have the consideration to his classmates around him..He didnt. Screaming away when the moment he stepped into the classroom. which makes me wonder. what does these people's brain contain anyway ? cow crap ? I have limits. I have my tolerance. You can go try testing them. but it wouldnt be nice when i unleash all at once to ensure you total Annihilation of your Kind. I do not need to resort to ways and means or Unscrupulous methods to get you outta my sigh. But i know. I have the way, the power to do so. All i have to do is stay calm for 3 more mths before its all over. Thats where i shall regain my wings of freedom. clipped by the hearts of loved ones. where wings stretch far and wide. and if i should allow myself to let my darkness consume me. thats where i shall unleash Hell to Earth once again. But i know. before i do that. the Angel will be there by then. stopping me... Wei Chen u this lucky gal!! good lo u. got extra $100 sponsor frm ur mom! now u are $100 closer to your new cell lah ! hahaha... lucky gal. come on.. today is thursday already !! 2molo is the last day !! hahhaa... shiok lah u..... shiok lah.... weichen weichen weichen weichen !!! i am as calm as usual... (except for what happened at 1.25pm yesterday) ^ ^ Sunday, September 11, 2005
AWA Mantra: hahas!! thats simply amazing. see alot today. seen the different species of eagles/falcons. whatever u guys call it. hahas... realli nice!!! see birds of prey in action !! i believe most pple nv seen the wild birds in action before !! whahas !! btw i saw alot. and took around 300+ shots since 8am till 12pm. i did some post processing using the Velvia workflow and yah. amazing results. u guys can go check them out under SBWR Outings in the DeviantArt link. well.. nice meeting Mervin !! thanks for the ride out with others too !! hahhaahas... so this wednesday i will reconsider again. but i confirm joining u guys on Saturday for the Ubin trip.. hahas.. but this time i hope my combi can work lah. i onli get prolly 2% onli the rest is gonna go inside the bin... i shall stop now. i had enjoyed myself today. satisfied with my results so far! and i hope to see more improvements in my skills. ^ ^ Saturday, September 10, 2005
2molo will be fun i believe. since arthur will be there. and steven and sze kiat and ancientmariner. hahahahs. sure gt something to luff about one. cant wait to go there 2molo. 7am till the afternoon ! yay !! finall... cant wait.. anticipating. hope to have such outing every week man !! hahas... ^ ^ *Anticipation. Looking forward to something that i enjoy most. Friday, September 09, 2005
wadda hecks.. but anyway. i guess. i did a "barking" warm up. and did a small intro of my barking at them during when they are about to go home. and i guess they should be "kping" me now. and soon they will be so darn "bu shuang" about me... muahhas.. seriously.it wun be long before they see my so called "true colours" in uniform soon.my limit break has been shorten.. lols... next training when i reveal myself. i will show them what i mean by the "barking glenn" hmm... i was watching MTV after playing fables.. and yes! finally solved some of the quests.. hahas.. but short of money in the game.. and IN REAL LIFE too !!!!! whahaas... and erm i saw a song by Bon Jovi, Have a nice day. whass... the song is darn nice. can realli feel better after listening to it. so now. i may need a mp3 player soon. before i can start storing my favourite song inside.... well... collected my slides, and they look GREAT !!! Velvia has proved it power. and i am shooting slides for good. hmmm. time for invest soon!! hahas. and i bought myself a lightbox and a viewing loupe !! yays! but it cost me $50 for the set. and i am $50 poorer... this is how it looks like..  looks cool or whats... maybe when i am more establish den i may wish to get a bigger one that runs on power supply and an album of all my shoots.. heh! Artist: Bon Jovi Album: Have A Nice Day Title: Have A Nice Day Why, you wanna tell me how to live my life? Who, are you to tell me if it’s black or white? Mama, can you hear me? Try to understand. Is innocence the difference between a boy and a man. My daddy lived the lie, it’s just the price that he paid. Sacrificed his life, just slavin’ away. Ohhh, if there’s one thing I hang onto, It gets me through the night. I aint gonna do what I don’t want to, Im gonna live my life. Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice, Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly. When the world gets in my face, I say, Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day Take a look around you, look its what he sees. We’re living in a broken home of hopes and dreams, Let me be the first to shake a helping hand. Everybody, pray enough to take a stand, I knocked on every door, on every dead end street, Looking for forgiveness,what’s left to believe? Ohhh, if there’s one thing I hang onto, It gets me through the night. I aint gonna do what I don’t want to,Im gonna live my life. Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice, Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly. When the world gets in my face, I say, Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day. Guitar Solo Ohhh, if there’s one thing I hang onto, It gets me through the night. I aint gonna do what I don’t want to ,Im gonna live my life. Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice, Standing on the ledge, show the wind how to fly. When the world gets in my face, I say, Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day. When The world keeps trying, to drag me down, I've gotta raise my hands, gonna stand my ground. Well I say, Have A Nice Day. Have A Nice Day Have A Nice Day simply great song.. today shall prolly mark my last event with ncc until 22nd November 2005. and till then. i will be full swing into the final preparations into the exams. great. 2molo at home mugging + sketching and prollu fix my camera's dust problems... shit.. and erm.. yah.. sunday is the shoot at SGB. heh.. see if i can get some nice shots ? yeah... a time for meee to relax lah.. to go back where my heart and soul can find peace and a inner sancture in within me... lets countdown to shooting day.. 1day 12hrs... as of accurate now... hahas. ^ ^ Thursday, September 08, 2005
and yah.. as what i said ytd lah. the field trip was expected to be boring. but had to get it done. if not i will have my arse burned again. so yah. took some pics, and i will be expecting the transfer 2nite or saturday morning. but anyway. the field trip became a "field trip" or expedition of ogling at bypassing gals.. and erm... yah... but pls. we are looking because we are observing human activities. not for the sake of lust..... pls.... so 2molo i can be excused from school, cause i will be overseeing the Specialist Course at KSTC, so yah. assuming the role of CO for the morning and their afternoon POC...and i will nt go soft this time.. they are all dead meat 2molo... i will fry their brains and burn their feet and toes under the hot tar road... muahahhas... *evil grin* prepare to suffer.. and i realise that i am running out of cash !!! daaaamn.... omgs... i am not like some who have some scholarship bull-crap or some bursary. cos i am nt entitled !! bullcrap system. if only the loopholes can be "bigger"... what to do. sickening bullcrap system. full of numb-skulls there.leeching our annual taxes. numb-skulls! u hear me? *booooooooo!!* i guess i will have to sleep very early today. kinda have my brains fried... and i will have to wake up early to iron that stupid uniform of mine... sians. Wednesday, September 07, 2005
i re-edited it. as of accurate today. and i found out that 2molo i will be on some field trip to city hall again ? *boooooooooo....* kinda dun like field trips. but i do not have a chance do i ? lols... but anyway. i dun realli wish to go city hall. but on second thoughts. i guess i have to make it a point to go there now to develop my 1 stupid roll of Velvia.. and i wonder hw much will it cost. i onli know it will cost me 60 cents for each mounting. Fable was kinda loooong... i am still stuck at killing the earth troll.... super diff.. my stats isnt as strong as i tot its gonna be. i tried to use fire element attacks and since earth is weak towards fire element attacks... *heh.. Final Fantasy derived tactics.. hahas.* but anyway. i intend to go sch 2molo, and do my ten year series all the way until its time for the field trip. and prolly take a couple of shots for my presentation and go develop the flims and some gaming. and back home. yah.. that should be the plan... hahahas.... kk. i think i shall sign off... tahs.. ^^ Tuesday, September 06, 2005
anyway. tired. but i got something i want for a rather "long" time ? which was Fable.. hahs. the Xbox game lah.. gt a 2nd hand one.. at $30 bucks. and yah it is 50% cheaper den the original one.. whahas. its nice.. but the starting part a bit super boring... and sissy too lahs. but now. i think i am in the stage of apprenticeship.. hahahas.. thinking of being either a knight or a mage.. ahahas.. ok. i shall sleep early tonite and wake up early to finish my topics. i finished topic 4a today. and hope to finish 5 2molo. To: SG. JY. i know its my fault for not complying to ur certain standards. but i think i have a different policy of handling my cadets. but anyway. i got ur message through already. its just that certain things u have to tell me in person. coz i dun know u well. so u cant expect me to understand ur standards. since u told me ur standards through the "hard" way, well i guess its another learning experience for me. and i will keep it in mind. i dun blame u. i too know that this day will come when someone comes up to me and tell me that my leadership is climbing towards a more welfare system. i guess i shall be less lenient and be more serious in my leadership position. i shall live up to be a cadet trained by SG Timothy and LT Soh, CLT Azman and CLT Haslan and Simon Koh. I shall follow their footsteps in becoming one of the once feared top 3 most "jia lat" cadet officers of my time. i know my weakness, and my points on where i should improve. thank you for pointing them out to me now. i shall look into a more serious side of me, and shall raise hell from now on.seems like doomsday is coming... thanks SG JY. it has a been a wake up call for me. and i am not blaming or hating u, coz i too understand. thanks. ^^ tireds... go sleep now... Monday, September 05, 2005
terrible. i was in class sleeping my way after a 1hr revision which announced a final meltdown announcement to my brain that i needed some more sleep to recover from the loss of sleep syndrome i had in camp due to some stress i was in. although there wasnt really any stress there coz we had this karaoke session that was meant to "destress" but well.. i guess sleep is now a better alternative to singing lah.... ok so.. erm.. coz i slept throughout the whole day in class, i didnt do any revisions, and covered the full topic 4. and i will do the debriefing for topic 4 later in the night. and moved into topic 4a jus a few hours ago. Iris, terribly sorry lahs. couldnt make it. i was realli tired. tats why lah yahs... ps if i pissed u off in the morning for sleeping. coz i was super tired. coz had onli 4-5hrs of sleep throughout the 2 nights.... well i will upadte later in the night. sometimes i know my actions in class like nt participating in class activities will be like a bit disturbing and stuff. its not that i am not interested, but i am really wish to pass my O lvls and go to Poly. ITE is really not a place for me. i have disappointed my parents, friends and relatives, not only i brought them shame by entering ITE, but they had lost alot more confidence in me when i entered ITE. i too, disappointed in myself. that is why i am trying realli hard to pass my exams and wwant and wish to leave here as soon as possible. my plan was as usual. to take ITE as a stepping stone so that i could go poly. but i have to be realistic. oh well. i guess i have written my reasons in my previous entries. so i shouldnt go into repeating them... *JKTong, 2molo morning we meet at Tanah Merah for the CNB IMOS thingy ? remember to bring berret !! lols... and erm... yah.. proceed as planned ? fail them all ?? or black mark the schools we mentioned ?* Sunday, September 04, 2005
but anyway. the whole day sucked because of the AAR session, the cadets bombed at us with their complains. and complained the the RSM NCC, yes... 1WO Christopher lahs !!! kns.. wad to do... some pple complained this and that.. but anway. the 2 jokers who complain things which is NOT the facts is gonna fail the whole frigging course. i am going to give them a rank or senior CPL. whether they like it or not. i will give them that... aand if their CO come asking me why. i will say. they do not have what it takes to be even a Part B cadet, let alone a Specialist. cannot do footdrills and armdrills properly. I/C exchanging procedure also dun know. can do die better. and still dare to ask the OIC and all of us to wake up our bloody ideas, and having doubts on the professionalism of the officers involved.... and btw pple. I am making a declarations. I will be condemning the 3 following schools for the bad attitute for this year till 2006's june. the schools are Tanjong Katong Secondary, Marist Stella, Riverside Secondary. too bad.. these 3 schools will be receiving a letter from the DC informing them of their school's poor cadet disclipline, and etc etc etc... and one of my cadet specialist's mobile got stolen lahs. and we all know who stole it already, and commander will be informed of this issue and prolly reccomend a dismissal for the officer/cadets involved. because there are 1 officer and 2 cadet specialists involved in this thef case. and we are taking it very seriously because a officer is involved and it will tarnish our image if we allow them in the service of the Corps. darn it.. super tired.. i think i am gonna go rest lahs.. super tired... feel like falling flat already.. sigh.... signing off now. Saturday, September 03, 2005
booked in last minute. reached camp around 10.45pm. had a course brieifing from OIC. and yes. he is from the 44th intake.. lol so he is 1yr older den me.. ok. so we gave out out appointments and i got a post of instructor/examiner... kns.. ok lah. at least i wasnt with Logistics or Admin.. lol.. if not i will go crazzy like them.. and after the briefing, most of us wasnt even tired.. and so we had this "mini-karaoke" and sang loudly even though there are Mt Ophir pple sleeping upstairs and female cadet specialists opposite our Ops. and we were sleeping in Lecture room 3. so the room is divided by only a frame made of plastic. so yah. those girls couldnt sleep coz we were singing sooo loudly.. hahaha.. stupid guys... and we actually stopped singing at around 2.50-3am ? taking into consideration that we have to wake up at 5.45am.. hahas.. and yeah! all of us were practically stoned and yah.. as usual everyone was short tempered and started screaming at the walkie talkies... hahaha!!! and while screaming, as usual, vulgarities are exchanged.. wAHhaha.... nth funni about it too... lol. and yah lah.. that whole day is abit slow, cos everything was delayed because the cadets didnt have even the basic discipline to move fast and act fast. RSM was doing his job though. but it was the cadets that was not listening to his instructions. and so. there were some huffs and scuffs and some misunderstandings. and lucky nothing "exciting" happened. if not all of us will be in deep shit.. and wadever. i feel that this batch of so called specialists do not have what it takes to be a specialists. simple instructions cannot handle. cannot tahan this cannot tahan that. a little bit here and there start complaining. and one joke was that who says we cant do marching in the rain ? but anyway. we didnt care. we marched them in the rain. screwed them, whacked them all in the rain. i know we sound evil. but its them who cannot wake up their ideas and get the situation right. and the day ended with a joke that will be handed down for the next few years aand yah...another karaoke session on saturday night PLUS a midnight order of macs!! hahas.. the order was sooo darn frigging large that the manager had to call us to confirm the order. i suspect he worry that we are gonna "tua" him or something.. hahas. but yah... ordered some means totaling to $60! kns.. nv ate such an expensive macs before. and because we are in the military camp. these delivery pple cannot sent into our office coz they do not have clearance. even though AMQ is an non-active camp. and yahs... the $60 value mac did receive some realli good service. like having 2 officers escorting the meal and a land rover. hahahahhaha !!!!!! and we sang karaoke until we all slept lahs.. and the next day.. on sunday... shall continue... but on saturday.. it was terrible because pple cannot get the message of whos in charge there... *wei chen! i didnt make u puke blood lor... lol.. and sometimes the amount of blood i puke and bleed is more than the amount of water u consume each day ahs !! hahahas... boooo... and yes. welcome the the 18yr olds.. and i am moving to my 19 yr olds soon! hahahs... * Friday, September 02, 2005
i dunno... shit !! no decision yet... by 9.30 no sound. i guess i will leaving for camp. wha lao.. worse den mobilisation leh !!! pple take 4-5hrs to activate. mine is immediately leh... 8pm inform. 11mus report... wAHhh !!! i going nuts...... stupids... feel like killing people.. Grrrr..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! Welcome to the 18yr old club !! You can now do the following things a) Buy and Consume Alchohol LEGALLY b) Watch M18 movies LEGALLY c) Go drinking pubs and clubs LEGALLY (some only lahs..) d) Take Driving License ( You are still eligible) etc etc... All in all there is of course a message... Today is your day. Therefore cherish every moment you have now. 18 years ago. You entered the world. With a Purpose and Reason in Life. You excelled in everything you do. You brought Happiness to others and gave others a new lease of life. You are definately someone who is worth mentioning. A person of High Confidence.Leadership and of course one with the highest level of Discipline, Integrity. One who never fails to bring sunshine to others. An Angel to my eyes. One who gave me a 2nd chance in life. Who entrusted me when others didnt. And yes. I may be naggy at times. But i guess sometimes i should remind you not to give in to some temptations. Especially when i "foresee" the cons of it. Theres alot to be said. But i shall keep it to myself. And probably year by year. I can saw more in this messages. You gave me Strength to move on. Happy Birthday Wei Chen. (Birthday present delayed ahs... erm..gimme some time.. u will get it once i have it in hand =) cos i last time nv give u present ? so now i guess its time to do so, so when mine is coming.. remember ahs.. PSP ! joking lahs... ) Thursday, September 01, 2005
but for this song. erm. it so serve a purpose. and although the song is not about me. but i would like to bring out a theme: Pretend. Self-Characterisation. i dun think the song will be about me. so yahs.. heh.. gtg sleep now.. and before i do so. In case i am late for the well wishes. i shall make one in advance.... although incomplete. but i have sure surpassed my target by completing 2.5 topics in a day. and so i guess later i must wake up earlier to move on with Algebra. its a make or break thing for passing maths. so i gotta work hard !!! i came across this quote when the DJ over the radio spoke of this question. Why do special people come into your life and walk out ? Its because all these special people come into your life is to teach you a lesson in life. It will serve a Purpose, a Reason. It teaches you in a way that you will feel hurt in one way or another. And it also make sures that you don't get hurt the same way again. "If the door isnt closed, you'll never feel how its like to be opened" Purpose.... Reason.... Its all part of life.... Artiste: Linkin Park Album: Meteora Title: Lying from You When I pretend Everything is what I want it to be I look exactly like what you had always Wanted to see When I pretend I can forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just 'cause I know I can/ButI can't pretend this is the way It will stay/I'm justTrying to bend the truth I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be So I'm Lying my way from you [No/No turning back now] I wanna be pushed aside So let me go [No/No turning back now] Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone [No turning back now] Anywhere on my own'Cause I can see [No/No turning back now] The very worst part of you Is me I remember what they taugt to me Remember condescending talk Of who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that And this again So I pretended up a person who was fitting in And now you think this person Really is me and I'm [Trying to bend the truth] But the more I push The more I'm pulling away 'Cause I'm Lying my way from you This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from youLike this The very worst part of you The very worst part of you Is me -START OF REPORT- Misson: Topic 03 Total Time: 01hrs (1345hrs-1448hrs) Target Attempted: 16/18 Target Accuracy: 88.9% Target Acquisition Time: 3.33mins/target Topic Conclusion: Revised - END OF REPORT -
-START OF REPORT- Misson: Topic 02Total Time: 03hrs (0500hrs-0800hrs) Target Attempted: 33/33 Target Accuracy: 69.7% Target Acquisition Time: 5.45mins/target Topic Conclusion: Revised. Weakness in some of the attempted question types. Will KIV question types. - END OF REPORT - and erm.. i now believe i need to quickly save up lahs !! need some $. prolly i shouldnt think of making $, but i guess i will have to concentrate. ok. moving to topic 3 later at 10-11am. |
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it has been a long journey for me, to arrive where i wanted to belong for too long
been alone for some time. being hurt and quiet for too long.
the heart grows stone, and cold as time passes by, it grows weary...
awaiting for someone kind enough to give me warmth in this cruel and cold society we all live in
every now and then. someone appears.
every now and then, i see little hope that i might be able to find someone who understands me
but usually dashed when one was unable to love me for my flaws.
it has been tough so far.
really tough...
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