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i am lonely. are you there ?

take me to the sky

4:56 PM

10:18 PM

9:11 PM one of the best mainstream rockers i've grown to like and respect more.

12:47 AM new skin !!

10:17 PM term break ending in 1 day. kinda sad thou. although i finished SOME of my assignments,but there seems to have endless amount of work left undone thou..

9:42 PM finally, after 2 months, i've managed to get the renderfarm up and running. but its still short of rams. so gotta search for another 1gb ram or so.

it was initially running on Ubuntu, but now its officially running on a XP pro Sp2 together with 4 other computers.

term break is here. and i have taken a 2 days break before i embark a 2 weeks filled with tons of assignments.

ok first. i have to make sure that i am taking over for the booking of pits and food arrangements should raymond decide not to make up his mind too.

i also bought the LightScribe dvd burner.... effects not very fantastic but the speed it was burning was way faster than my first cd writer. and i am sure that its faster than the SuperDrive that apply has pre-fitted in its iMac or its MacPro. hahahs.

Monday will deliver one assignment, while tuesday will be spent working on khairul's works.

wednesday will be spent in school. while well.. i dunno.

kinda like watching Flags Of Our Fathers now.... kinda nice film. uncensored + original + dvd format too !

well.. i am hoping to seal the next assignment so that i can reach the goals faster.

For now. i've decided to give MacPro or the MBP a miss first while i get my backup equipment faster so that i can deal with the assignments.

List as follows:

Canon 20D / 30D @ $1900 +
BG-E2 @ $200
420EX @ $500
EF 70-200 IS L @ $4000
EF 17-40 L @ $1500

wow... pockets going to bleed big time.... i hope this setup will get my father started up in photography again.

--- sigh ---

heh... i think i want to buy new inkjet cartridges for my printer... i need to print a few tees for myself... heh.... and yah. about the uniform for the company.

1:19 AM i cant imagine that i am bloggin at this hour right now.

theres stuffs being left undone, uncompleted. a few of these are;

Mr Ng's sketches;
i finished 20 hand sketches, the banana sketch, while the rest i haven't touched yet, i hope i can get them completed by 2molo morning thou.

Miss Tan's Typo 3 assignment (totally pwned and i DO NOT like the feeling of being badmouth)
finished 10 drafts, and will be doing the rest on wednesday afternoon.

Daniel's Project: Door stopper
the wire cutter isnt working perfectly, so there will be some changes to the model. and i will do a sketetal structure to get the idea across, the mock up i will just use it as a POP model.

Mr Woo's Project: Basics of model making, blue foam.
Puttied, and still waiting for it to get dried and sanded down.


---------------- totally crapped -----

i shall answer a question that i answered 2yrs ago and i answered for at least 12 times.

Question is: Glenn are you a christian ? do you go church ?

Answer: No. I am neither a christian nor do i go to the church.

but i do read the bible for life directions. i hope this answers your question.

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i hope to get the class; IPU 07, to be gathered and of course to bid farewell to a few of our classmates who will be enlisting soon.

5N2,04. i think i will get fereen and weiling to get the class organised ?? i am not going to do organising already !!!! too many stuffs.

6H,99. eh.......... i received the email already. let me know about the alumni meeting please. thanks.

DD0702. BBQ how ? i dunno i not the planner ah. let me know on how i can help out then.

Designers !!!! meeting on the 18 or 19th June !!! Dinner / lunch also can. arrange timing with me please.


counting down... 3 more days... 3 more freaking days.. and yes. i feel like ponning art history.. and i hope someone can mark attendance for me... =((

4:23 PM i have been doing the assignments for the past 3 days non stop. with a recorded 7hrs of sleep for 3 days in total.

i am very demoralised with no sleep and with almost no energy to carry on.

and with Typo 3 uncompleted, and with Mr Ng's sketchings undone. i feel very out now...

sigh... why must everything clash on this week ?

and i know "She" likes to find fault in me because i come from ITE, but why does she have to do this. what is so different from me from the rest ? just because i am from ITE ?

she is obviously showing prejudice against people like me and others alike. She is trying to tell the world the ITE students are a bunch of worms and lazy buggers and should be put out from the course.

This has been proven from SID and VC students.... and she is doing the same to ID students...

she is one i despised no matter how great her background because in my eyes, she is no different from Wee Shu Min.

She practices Elitism. she deserves to be rewarded with a place in the burning depths of Hell.

10:54 PM i was reading for Answers from God once again.

And don't let anyone put you down because you're young. Teach believers
with your life: by word, by demeanor, by love, by faith, by integrity

1 Timothy 4:12



Young people are prone to foolishness and fads; the cure comes through
tough-minded discipline.

Proverbs 22:15



Since Jesus went through everything you're going through and more, learn to
think like him. Think of your sufferings as a weaning from that old sinful habit
of always expecting to get your own way.

1 Peter 4:1




Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at
you from all sides.

James 1:2




10:32 PM i am restarting this blog for a reason. and that is because i am starting to have depressions as i go along.

i have never enjoyed any holidays since 2nd Jan, and i have been working on my projects for at least 6 months non stop without rest, without holidays and even proper sleep.

i fought my way for 4 months before securing a place in SDNID, the place which i wanted to go since i was a kid.

i know i chose this path

and i know that this is where i want to be.

i know this is all the training and i know that i have to face it.




Personally, i do not feel that i am of any different from my peers nor i am having any advantage over them in terms of knowledge.

Lecturer feels that i should have a better and matured mindset compared to the others, but what she doesn't know is how much stress that i am going through since i am handling twice the workload.

she doesnt give two hoots to my background and the amount of workload and stress that i am currently having.

"You deprived me of my freedom, You deprived me from my rest. You deprived me from returning to my sanctuary and you deprived me from seeking out my inner sanctum"

"You are married. You know what it is to be in Love. You have no Kids. You do not understand what its like to be a mother. You have a childhood life. But you aint have a heart and ear to understand what kids have to face in school nowadays"

"You are wise indeed. For your knowledge; you are superior then any of us there. For you are wise. You compromise your ears. For you are no different from an arrogant Emperor waiting for the day when the entire Empire rebel against your ruling and political power"

i have been demoralised for the past 2 weeks at least. with minimal sleep and working at 110% off capacity and handling 14-15 events at any one time. I feel that i am getting closer to getting the "burn out" effect.

So question of the day " Does having someone to talk to and rely upon really helps ? Or does having a soulmate really helps ? "

if only someone can hear me out, you will know how much pain and suffering and torment i am taking on now...

i am not weak. but i am being worn down at a very dramatic rate over the days. who on earth can give me the Strength to carry on ?

Quitters are never winners, and Winners are never quitters. Loser always quits, Quitters always lose.