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Wednesday, November 28, 2007
 i previously announced that i may get the 40D as a switch.... after much persuasions.... i guess i will get the much talked about 5D before the end of 2007. I will invest in a new Canon 5D, with a full frame body and my much awaited 16-35 MkII. I estimate total damage for now is ... $3300 + $2100 = $5300..... Wah liao.. half the car liao...... anyway... i am confirmed that i will be getting the 5D and will be doing some website revamps to receive the 2008. i like this car.... 13k only...... average $500-600 which includes installment and maintenance... hmmmmm.. if next year everything picks up... i maybe half a step closer to owning my first car....personally i like this car.... and because i cant own the 2003 Civic R, this is the closest i can get to owning my first car. and with 1600cc, its a sports car with hatchback !! dream car la...... so can someone fulfil this dream of mine ?? Monday, November 26, 2007
first of all. it wouldnt be a rumour if it wasnt flying around till it reached me 2hrs ago. second. i would understand that the person who started this rumour has absolutely no brains or he has a mouth too big that the brain simply fell out from his mouth. or better still. God didnt gave him a brain when he was born. third. he love to make assumptions out of everything. which i call him a "well done" hey basturd. ASSUMPTION. it means you are making an ASS out of U and Me. so please... if you want to make any assumptions, leave me out will ya ? use your own Ass to do it. brainless fool. forth. DO NOT ever think i do not know who you are, because i have reliable sources to make sure my information is correct and accurate. fifth. Although we are from different courses, that doesnt mean that you should bad mouth or spread rumours about people from other classes, don't you have better things to do ? Its either your lecturer is sleeping or you are just not suppoed to be in Design ! (please get lost... ) I am fed up with such impudent maggots like you who sit around whole day doing nothing, but to spread rumours or asking for information on who's A and who's B.... u are just nosey. what does it gotta do with you ? you some kind of freak ? kids nowadays... simply dun understand whats up their minds really, especially for this particular person... i wonder what did his secondary school teach him... i shall ignore this maggot and continue with life ! while this maggot can just stay inside a well forever and live his favourite dream land and die a poor faggot. u are a no brain, basturd with no common sense and a freak, no life idiot. stay away from me.... you are a disgrace to the school, the society, and ultimately your parents. you will be an outcast..... this kind of people.. really a sad case... he should just end his life anyway since he doesnt even appreciate himself and the others around him... just die please.... D.I.E BASTURD ! D.I.E ! AND PLEASE. WHETHER I LIKE HER OR NOT ISNT OF YOUR BUSINESS OR NOT. AS LONG AS I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING AND ITS MY LIFE. NOT YOURS. AND JUST IN CASE ID0702 READS THIS... WE ARE CLASSMATES AND FRIENDS AS USUAL. NOTHING MUCH...there is more to this part. just msn me to know more can liao... and that basturd. i know you are reading this.... just remember.. you are a bustard. if you know who you are... I thank God for sending you this message of mine for you to read. i will HUNT you down if theres a need. Just don't make me do it. because i already know who you are.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
I am stuck from the idea of ponning mrs menon's tutorial... cause i find her lessons kinda kiddy primary school... crap.\ i gotta need to search for my ICA2 assignment sheet, and complete the ton of e-assesment on the CMS..... which i feel that its a very very stupid kinda thing... waste of time. 2molo i guess i will get my cordry pants, and if possible a few tees.... if not i will just get the cordry pants.... and head back home and rest.... 2molo i am working with ah bee... wah liaos.. i dunno man. first time working with him. i hope he is not some nasty man... i know he used to be canturn's asst. but oh well.... and it has been a LOOOONG time since someone last called me fishball lor..... i was like wtf.... eh gladys ! u call me fishball for what !! call until so sweet. =X stupid rar !!!! Sunday, November 18, 2007
 this is for those who are curious to what i am doing today.... and let the picture speak for itself... very tiring i must say.  and yes... these are sketches.... and yet again. a picture speaks a thousand words. hhahaha...   and there she is, Heike Fladung Merc's Design Modeller. with more than 17years in experience in clay modelling. and thats about all. and what happened on sunday....... Wong was good. good today. at least didnt give a headache. i guess he just found himself a opportunity to work with me and the others. really good..... nice guy... i start to think if what i am doing all of this was right in the first place. do not ask me what i've done. i mean. i shouldnt be taking sides, especially when i am one of the older ones around. i guess i should set a good example rather than teaching them the bad stuffs. i feel bad actually. i want to be nice to people. but some people just cant reciprocate it. thats why its hard for me to be nice to everyone at the same time. i want people who is around me to know that i am not someone who loves to take sides or even cause chaos somewhere. its just that sometimes when i get heated up. i tend to lose control UNLESS someone steps in and pull the leash on me. (frankly speaking. none has even put in effort and try talking to me... ) I would also agree with my students that i am may get this "stuck-up" kind of attitude once in a while. but i have been trying to change and improve all these while, what i need is abit of time, and someone to help me. thats simple. to whoever who is reading this. some of you may have received an email from my "Official email" about an event. and asked why i didnt invite the rest. actually my stand was very simple. u would have realised that i kept using past tense.... it WAS simply because i didnt want to share too many good stuffs with too many people at the same time. its that simple. i slowly reward and repay people accordingly. Especially those who were there to help me out in times of need and dispair. i have many unspoken words. and too many things in my mind. i hope to share some thoughts with someone whom i can relate to, and i hope to help anyone who appreciates me and my thought. i for one is now willing to extend my 100% commitment, and my time in teaching/guiding anyone who is willing to spend time understanding me and i will in return reciprocate it equally with my knowledge. (sounds very materialistic or trade thou) well......i am prepare to share my knowledge now. being open on how to sketch and render and etc... i am ready. well... as you can see.. it takes great courage for me to open up my skill sets to teach.. because as many would know. i do not like to share stuffs or knowledge especially in relation to ID. so i guess....... i shall take the initiative. anyway...... smart people will know that i interprete or send messages of my heart and mind in lyrics and songs. and those who can understand my feelings through the song are those who can potentially read my mind and understand my soul and heart. Now I know, That I can't make you stay. But where's your heart? But where's your heart? But where's your, And I know. There's nothing I can say. To change that part. To change that part. To change. So many, Bright lights they cast a shadow, But can I speak? Well is it hard understanding, I'm incomplete? A life that's so demanding, I get so weak. A love that's so demanding, I can't speak. I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven, Nothing you can say can stop me going home. Can you see? My eyes are shining bright, 'Cause I'm out here, on the other side, Of a jet black hotel mirror, And I'm so weak. Is it hard understanding? I'm incomplete. A love that's so demanding, I get weak. I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven, Nothing you can say can stop me going home. I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven Nothing you can say can stop me going home. These bright lights have always blinded me. These bright lights have always blinded me. I say. I see you lying next to me, With words I thought I'd never speak, Awake, and unafraid. Asleep, or dead. 'Cause I see you lying next to me, With words I thought I'd never speak, Awake, and unafraid. Asleep, or dead. 'Cause I see you lying next to me, With words I thought I'd never speak, Awake, and unafraid. Asleep, or dead. 'Cause I see you lying next to me, With words I thought I'd never speak, Awake, and unafraid. Asleep, or dead... I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven, Nothing you can say can stop me going home. I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven, Nothing you can say can stop me going home. I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven, Nothing you can say can stop me going home. Saturday, November 17, 2007
excited. just hope everything today will go smoothly, and no need to do slideshow. just let me take a 2-3hrs nap and off to shoot for dinner, and later finish liao den go home.... and pray hard this couple is a good looking one.... AHHHHHH !!! work work work.... busy busy busy....... crap.... =(
Friday, November 16, 2007
there were unhappy moments and times when i was fuming mad. i must thank Miss N for talking me out. i am seriously in need of rest and time to myself and of course going out with friends and etc. probably someone has to advise me and brainwash me to not working so hard since i am still "young" (Miss N, u want to volunteer issit... ) tommorow theres a wedding to shoot, and boss gave me a partner. i shall call him Wong. apparently a Msian who cant speak good english and chinese isnt that good. hmmm... makes me wonder on how am i going to communicate with him also.. crap. i am very tired. seriously. i hope someone can convince me not to work so hard... i need to rest... BTW. where is miss N !!!!!!!!! eat chicken so long one meh. need to catch the chicken ah. muhahhaha
 BMW Speciality Courses - YDT 07 this is the 2nd time bmw is holding such a course or course relating to safe driving here. and i posted the snap shot of the webpage to prove i am not bullshitting. i am not like someone who claims to have an Intl driving licence and still dun understand how much is the cost of petrol or even how to calculate fuel consumption. (and still talks about cars as if he knows everything. i doubt he knows how a cabarator or how a piston works...) self upgrading..... i need more money...
--------------- yesterday, went to woodlands in the morning around 7.45am. i think i drove faster than usual as i was worried that Miss Nwill be early there waiting since i told her 8am. but when i was there, she wasnt there yet. ended up waiting for close to 40mins. its not that i mind waiting la. sometimes i felt that i should at least go macdonalds rather den just sit there and wait patiently... (wtf was i thinking..... ) ok. i asked Miss N if Mr O was coming to meet us later. at first was a No.. i thought i could have some peace... suddenly.she told me that her mobile phone no money and asked if i can call him... i was like (u nuts ?! u expect me to talk to this bugger !?) i just took out my phone inhesistantly and passed the phone to her and asked her to phone him instead. that f****** Mr O boarded the train with a face with is not worth bashing with a bat but worth pouring some concentrated acid over. shit. i seriously dislike that prick. today he was simply irritating in class. with that music on so load.. and still didnt want to tone it down when there were already comments going around... (his actions is no different from those maggots i had in class ipp2005) in average, the day ended pretty smoothly except for Mr O. i didnt want to see his face early in the morning. what a spoil mood. Miss N, you save some money ok ?? dun spend so much money on just a mobile phone. just not worth it. save it for other purposes. and yes. i know that i dislike Mr O la... dun expect me to shake hands with him that soon ok ? you are a very very nice person, seriously,thats why i keep advising you and making sure you dun make wrong choices or give opinions to help you make better choices. dun get me wrong. no pun intended. no strings attached. no hidden agendas ok ! but i do find u very interesting and a nice person to be with ok. just dun get me wrong. i will keep your compliments to myself. cause i do not want your head to grow too big. MUHAHA... if u wanna know just meet up for coffee or drop me a sms. just dun want to writthings which are overly sensitive here. since some people will make a big hoo haa over the things i write here too. (and of course there are others whom i know views this page. btw this blog gt 20k visitors lor... wah liao scary..) if things on my side gets complicated. i will let u Miss N know ok ! dun worry. i will not download images, or make montages out of you,nor i will make a photo album or slideshow of you or even keep a secret folder with ur images. =) i am just not that kind of person. what a day today......
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
 yes... as u can see from the picture. we are now members in Pantone, and Nikon Professional Services.... in 6mths i will join Canon Professional networks. yay! ----------------- day ended smoothly. nothing much happened thou... besides driving kaz to that "mobile phone shop" to see the prices. and yah la... told u its $200-$100 cheaper den retail liao what. i think if theres a chance to drive again. i guess the whole day we will have 1 cars instead of 2.. i think abit not fuel efficient to just transport 1 person to school den drive back alone... transport 2 or more would be more fuel efficient i believe. today's mileage is 100km. and yah la !! jas's merc is more powerful laaa...... drive so fast.. still want me to drive s.l.o.w.l.y !!!! wth... after KJE cannot see u liao can... just disappeared into the lorries.... hahhahahaha... ok. so now. i think i will have to sleep early so that i can wake up in time. finish our dear JK's work liao... hmm. rather satisfied with the drawings.. not bad (i think... ) but the mockup i guess i will do in front of sean la... simply no time to do it man...... hias... day ended nice... real good.... except for the R******....... today he was quiet. which was good... not a word from him and no bulls****..... no bull**** from him is = to good time and peace and many many good time for today... so.. lets all pray hard that he will remain quiet.... and yes.... Supernatural Season 3 + Heroes Season 2 is in the midst of dling already... i have started to watch Season 3 for supernatural and heroes probably 2molo... muhahahhaa.... and to kaz! u didnt take pic with me leh u !!! wah liao... hw can u forget........ Monday, November 12, 2007
I AM NOT OKAY... NOT OKAY AT ALL.... SERIOUSLY....... BECAUSE THIS IS ONE OF THOSE TIMES WHEN I FEEL VERY EMOTIONAL AND DOWN AND DEPRESSED. i guess i will have to step down. sometimes i really hate it when everynow and then you start to see hypocrites popping up here and there; i shall not mention names, but sometimes really. its not that i hate (i cant use hate because he's my classmate) but i cant tolerate his crap sometime. apparently, i am someone who work for my dough and moolah. i do not need to stretch my hand out and ask for cash u see. i am not someone who is living off my parents and i am also not someone who is entirely dependant on my parents. come on... but anyway. i can frankly say. unless he is being himself. all those boasting and stuff is just (PAIN IN THE ASS) it has been a rough week. and i want to thank kaz for talking me out. really. nevertheless. 11 more working days and my good friend will be by my side !! finally... just have to stay focused and silent about this for 11 more days.. ( i think mr soon thinks that it will be a good surprise for me... NAHS !! it isnt.......) being single for wayy too long already i guess. time to open my eyes and look harder... really hard. i am sure theres someone eligible just that.. aiyah... obstacles u see ? (smart people will know what i mean) but those who have been active with me on the political forefront should know that i anti-FTs alot. but i guess... i will have to choose which kind of FT deserves to be anti'ed. Recently there has been a uprising number of this kinda of FT coming to singapore. and i am not relating to Msia. its anpther country. I realise these buggers are appearing more common and common... yet again. there will be high chance i will drop back to the dark side. really soon. no more lovely dovey songs. no more happy moments. just pure blackness.. theres no reason why i should be happy with the life i have now. theres no one there when i needed help, theres no one there to support me in times of need. theres no one. simply no one. guess i'll wait. i'll wait.... i'll search. i'll wait. i'll see. i may have just lost hope. Saturday, November 10, 2007
 i know news have been going around in the forums and the industry networks itself. many of the rumours are eventually heard by me ! i know nikonians here in singapore is very dissapointed that i have decided to make a "jump ship" unto the competitor's brand which is Canon. i guess this comes very naturally because of the nature of my work. i need to work in a very challenging lighting conditions, which requires me to work fast and hard with the need of high iso and now available lighting which requires me to eliminate the use of the hotshoe or mounted flash. however sad or painful the fact is that canon has answered my call for the need of nice clean images at high iso of 1600 and even crispy images at 3200 after processing. and the af is fast and accurate with the use of L lenses. but rest assured that i still have my nikon and my trinity lens. because i will never sell or betray the camera that saw me through thick and thin. and assignments with the worst clients. for the curious. on my upcoming gears. 40D BGe2 580EX 2 16-35 EF L 2.8 Mk II 50 / 85 EF L 1.2 Mk II 35 EF L 2 70-200 EF L IS 2.8 and some will ask. any backup bodies ?? (answer is yes if theres enough assignment to justify another 5D Mk II or the 50D.. hahahs..) nuff said.... count down..... 2-3 weeks !!!!!!
now i am wondering if this skin was even made for posting with videos man... crapped..
good singer, nice clean yet powerful voice. she could potentially be the next favourite female artistes on my lists... haha.
Friday, November 09, 2007
no one knows the pain i am going through. the pain of being lonely. in the silence of the night. all you can hear are the sounds from the radio, the sound of keyboard keys being pressed and the sounds of passing by cars. its all darkness. as if everything is closing in. it seems i may have just gone into a depression mode once again. no one to talk to. no one to hear me out, and everything is being closed into my stone cold heart. i refuse to open myself was because i was hurt before. and it is still in pain and till now. i couldnt find the special someone who could hold the key to my heart. is this all fated. was this all destined. where are you ? there is no point in being talented, resourceful, and everything anyone would wish to be when i am not appreciated for who i am, what i want to be, and for what i look like. not appreciated because everyone wants to have a handsome boyfriend/husband whom they love. everyone wants a pretty girlfriend/wife. everyone want their partner to be perfect from every angle they see. people who are flawed. imperfect like me. remain isolated. exiled. i would also admit that i am flawed in every possible way. but is there anyone out there who would dare admit that he/she is flawless or even perfect. i have been lonely.... really lonely.....
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Does it mean that i will need to answer EVERY SINGLE call i receive ? stupid idiot. wake up your bloody idea. are you still sleeping ? idiot. farked up.
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it has been a long journey for me, to arrive where i wanted to belong for too long
been alone for some time. being hurt and quiet for too long.
the heart grows stone, and cold as time passes by, it grows weary...
awaiting for someone kind enough to give me warmth in this cruel and cold society we all live in
every now and then. someone appears.
every now and then, i see little hope that i might be able to find someone who understands me
but usually dashed when one was unable to love me for my flaws.
it has been tough so far.
really tough...
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